These are tracks rebuilt from their original sessions or self-sampled from performance recordings for further elaboration in the studio. They represent a process of iteration, often adapted for particular nights in particular cities. Kyoto, Kyiv, Berlin, LA...
It starts with a recording of the extreme wind event near the source of the Thomas Fire, before we evacuated. The fire ripped through Ventura and Santa Barbara counties in 2017 while I was beginning a tour in support of the album Hesaitix. For a time, it was the largest wildfire in California history. A few years later I became stuck in the same location due to the pandemic and eventually suffered a stroke and underwent heart surgery. This was a year without touring, in a landscape I had felt so estranged from since moving away almost two decades before.
This feels like a good time to take stock of the detritus from a decade of production under the alias M.E.S.H. There was a lot I had to figure out on the way - mostly how to enliven in space a sound whose center of gravity seemed to hold to a digital production environment. I did that in a few ways, usually building up from pieces of tracks using the most versatile sampler of all time, the CDJ-2000. There were times I experimented with sequencers and other machines, sessions with laptop and MIDI controller, and other attempts to make dynamic a process that was at its heart screen-based. But the most satisfying shows always stuck to a standard format of CDJs and mixer, played with as much spontaneity as I could wring out of the files I brought with me and the muscle-memory ingrained through a bazillion nights as a DJ.
There was something I wanted to break apart and hear more clearly in its whirring middles. I wonder if that thing, whatever it was, is gone now.
This compilation is dedicated to fans of my club music who got stuck at my live show, and fans of my albums who ended up at the club, trying to get into it. Thanks for your patience.